argh.. life is full of ups and downs, and today is definitely one of my down days.. shant elaborate on why i am down..
realised some undesired behaviour in myself..
i am biased. i do not treat everyone the same. i look at everyone with different views. when two person ask me something similar, i will give two rather different answer. i doubt any of you will realise this. but its true. i am biased towards certain people. this is my weakness. hope that i can look and treat everyone equally.
i am easily jealous. i get jealous when people get higher score than me. i get jealous when people are better of than me. i get jealous when people get what they want, and i cant get what i want. this is another of my weakness. i must try to be more generous and not get jealous so easily. afterall, god is fair and everyone has bad points.
and, lastly, i just realised that what i wished for in the past, is hardly attainable. its quite impossible for my wish to come true. i think i shall drop the idea of trying so very hard to get something that is really out of my reach. maybe some time to think about it carefully is something which i need now.
feeling terrible now.. feeling pain in my stomach.. have absolutely no idea what cause it.. maybe it is trying to stop me from going for maths practice session tomorrow.. trying to prevent me from wasting time tomorrow when i sit in the LT.. =)
