i have decided. i will carry on my duty as a romeo ic, till the day i step down. shall put all my heart and soul in trying to groom all the upcoming new coxswains till the day i step down as romeo ic. maybe like this, i will not live with any regrets and my ns life will be a fruitful one. not sure whether i will succeed or not, but you never know if you never try:)
guess it hard for me not to care too much.